Friday, April 22, 2016

Just Get Started Already!

Why is it so hard to get started?  I rebooted this blog, what, a week ago?  Have I made any progress on this fantastical life change?  No.  Nope.  Nada.  Nooooooooooo.  Yes there are excuses which could be made but basically it all boils down to the fact that I don't want to do it.  I also don't want to continue to be sore and achy and fat and feeling generally lousy.

I'll check in again next week.  Before then, I will have eliminated sodas from my diet.

Stay tuned.  Life reboot in progress.


Thursday, April 14, 2016

Eating ALL The Things!

Today we got some very bad and ill-times news that has everything to do with replacing our primary vehicle and nothing to do with cash on hand to do so.  Sooooo anyway, needless to say it has been a very stressful day.  Of course we will figure it all out but until then I have been having a major attack of EATING ALL THE THINGS.  In my office the communal candy bucket had just been refilled so I grabbed several mini packets of Skittles and downed them in the course of an hour or so.  Now my heart is racing and I have a major case of the shakes.

My point in sharing all of this is why do we do this to ourselves?  Why do I do this?  Did eating all of that sugar make me feel any better, less-stressed and/or capable of dealing with the problem at hand? Nope.  Not one bit.  Now I just feel generally lousy PLUS I'm still dealing with the initial stressor.

The old coping mechanisms just aren't working any more.


Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Wake-Up Call

How did I get here?  I glanced in the bathroom mirror last night and – holy crap!!  When did I get to be this old?  This fat??  This … THIS?!?!  How did 49 years old creep up on me and how did my butt get this big and lumpy?  Granted, I’ve been obese my entire adult life and have always felt way older than my age but this was a real wake-up call.  When was the last time I threw on some make-up?  Got a pedicure?  Trimmed my cuticles?  Made an effort?  What happened to the badass I always intended to become but never actually did?  


Stay tuned.